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Name: Tze Hoong
Country: United States
Metro: Wichita
Birthday: 8/9/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: music, cars, philosophy, serenity of an acoustic guitar's rhythm, a good supper at Quiktrip...
Expertise: Think... (i can't miss this one out!), music, your life problems-my ears, staring at you until you get scared
Occupation: Student
Industry: Business
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MSN: heirs@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  tzehoongtan@yahoo.com
Member Since:
1/14/2004
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| Good morning,
It is flowing through the summer days when heat gets you to shower twice a day. The nights are not as forgiving as it used to be, I don't want to go out at all.
As I always say, that summer is always something interesting. During the summer times is when some changes that occurs to set my next school year. I am not feeling it yet, I've been busy.
This season is dreadful, along with it is also the moody feelings that brings me down. The heat in America is different, and as much as it is different, it is weird in the sense that it brings rain unexpectedly. This then causes the humidity that lingers in the air, which makes things worst off. So when there are days that lifts me up, there are days that brings me down.
God has put me on a leash because He had to or else I would wander away with my own plans in life. Not that God is a control freak, and He is in control but I did always pray that He would not let me go despite how I have been doing in life. Over more, He is and will be there no matter what.
But I have been reminded of change, and thus maybe here is where changes will come in for this summer. God needs no jury to play risk balancing on my cases, God needs no credit score to predict my behaviors, and God certainly needs no insurance and mortgages to safe guard my promises to not sin. However He needs a lawyer, not for Himself, but for me.
The Miranda warning as is always quoted and addressed that "You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law. You have the right to speak to an attorney, and to have an attorney present during any questioning. If you cannot afford a lawyer, one will be provided for you at government expense."
So as I am under arrest for my sins, I have the right to not say anything... truth is there is nothing to be said when God arrests us because He already knows what we did. And anything we say can and will be used against us, so there is no point of lying and justifying to God. I have the right to speak to an attorney, which may not be exactly a right, but as many people says that it is a privilege and the attorney to be present at any point of time during my arrest. So if we cannot afford a lawyer, which we actually really cannot, one will be provided by for us at God's expense.
God gave me Jesus as a lawyer...
But this lawyer did more than represented me in my case of sin. Truth is, He was not fighting to plead me not guilty, but to acknowledge my case of failure to observe the law of holiness and righteousness that has led to the case of sin... In any case in court today, you think that this would be the worst lawyer ever, making you look bad. But not so when He not only represented you in front of God, but took your punishments.
Then the case will be settled as we will walk, and Jesus will do time.
Now that is the case of forgiveness, the sentence has took place. We can walk out of the court unharmed... But... now the state of the situation has increased greatly, that it is now up to us to decide how to respond. Our repentance will keep us safe as we acknowledge the ransom that was given for us, or we continue to commit sin and in the end to lead to a judgment that ultimately sends us into prison for "life"...
I have been a believer for almost 13 years, and I have not really acted like one for many many occasions with no good reason. Seeing the case for my failure to meet God's standards, I have found myself in court of God many many times and each every time, Jesus has made His mark for my place of punishment. This is a drastic act of love and forgiveness, so I need to make a more drastic act of change on my part.
As I take my place for getting my rehabilitation, I call along people that are close to me to do so for this summer. Because each time when you look back on your trail of sin, it does not get any shorter, but only gets transferred to Someone else that does not deserve it... Respond for a better life, and I mean better in every way possible...
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| Everyday doors are open, its a sign of new beginnings.
I may not be used to taking opportunities but I do find it clearer and clearer each day that I find the door flings wide open in front of me eyes to catch my attention. People that has passed my way have more or less find themselves in a place where they ought to be. Something's are pretty clear that I have so much to do before I move on to the next place. God does gives signs, though I am not too sure what are they exactly but the signs are there.
There is something else that I need to be doing here and I am still seeking for it, I do pray that God brings it to me clearer each day for that.
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| I love food. I love to cook, I love to prepare and take food to different levels. And because food is something big to me, the impact that it brings is special. I always take opportunities to glamorize simple food into gourmet dishes, like something you would serve in a 3 star restaurant.
I am however humbled greatly by food, by the simple cooking of a little kitchen. I developed what I call 'love food'. Simply meaning, simple food made out of love. This love is something you would give to your child, your grandmother, your love ones. I have pride in the sense of knowing greatly about what are the things I am good at, and as obvious to the situation, only pride is stemmed out of the things I know and do. But the humbling effect of love food drives me down to nothing.
4 years ago, I met a group of friends that I now consider to be one of my bests. We live life together, serving God with all we have. I remembered that every Sunday morning, some of the guys would gather to load up the church van with musical instruments and equipments for church later in the afternoon. I would go early after waking up late and just wait for the time when the guys would start loading the van. I would not even had anything to eat then because I would not usually eat breakfast in the morning. One of the guys would usually ask me if I had anything to eat yet and I said no. He would then cook macaroni and cheese with sausage for branch. Nothing fancy but a simple meal. The moment I sat in the room and savor the food, I felt my heart melt. I could have been the memories that it has brought to me, it could be something else.
Simple as it seems, with the little simple ingredients, the food became exceptional, and full of emotions. For the first time, I tasted food with identifying the heart of the person who prepared it. Felt like home, felt like my very own mother made it. I could sense that the food was cooked carefully, made with care and love. My friend who cooked it may not come to any realization whatsoever but it did made a place in my heart to be humbled. This has taught me that through anything and everything I do, I can do it with my heart and I know that someone will be moved by my actions.
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| Life takes its time to do the things it wants to do. I remembered as little children who are so eager to grow up and do things, I only see myself thinking back about the days when there are no worries because there are my parents. Now I am thousands of miles away from them and I found myself living a life with something I have to make for.
People say life is short and indeed it is but life also takes its time. Thinking about the pain that we go through, just as much as we try to savor every joy that lingers, pain also takes its time to do its bidding. To this I would like to learn to go through the pain. I will go through it but I do not want to skim through it for the sake of relief, but I want to do it for the reason of learning and overcoming. I want it to be life changing.
Sometimes I see people going about their lives but I don't know if they are doing something that is worth the while. I fear that all I do would be in vain, that I will be wasting my time. What am I doing right now that contributes to my future?
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| Lately I've been surged with feelings of shame, guilt and and humiliation. Following to those feelings are depression and sadness that comes in so many different levels.
A measure of success comes in many different ways and yet the world would like to see the early stages in one form. I have bought into that form of belief and I see different shades from what I thought would be black and white. So at this age I would think to myself what have I been doing so far and what am I doing with my life.
It is good to have a goal in life so that we can measure ourselves to the priorities that we make to fit the goal. So as I re examine myself with my goal, I still don't see where am I heading towards. I am almost 26 years old and I have not figure out what is purpose.
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