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Name: Tze Hoong
Location: Wichita, United States
Birthday: 8/9/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: music, cars, philosophy, serenity of an acoustic guitar's rhythm, a good supper at Quiktrip...
Expertise: Think... (i can't miss this one out!), music, your life problems-my ears, staring at you until you get scared
Occupation: Student
Industry: Business
Message: message meEmail: email me
MSN: heirs@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  tzehoongtan@yahoo.com
Member Since:
1/14/2004
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| A constant work of faith and grace that comes from God and God alone will this journey be filled with and until the day I return to the Lord, will all be perfect.
Father I need to come back to where you are. The moment I leave You out of my life is when chaos comes crumbling. I feel like Israel through the 40 days in the desert. I forget the very greatness and providence of yesterday and I complain and live life without Your acknowledgement.
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| Just in case you do not know... I am writing in my new blog for quite some time already at
http://in-the-waiting.blogspot.com/
I don't know if I will be writing much at this blog anymore, but I will keep it running always as the experiences in this blog has been tremendous.
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| I'm a little late but I guess I was busy with many things.
On December 23rd marks my 7th year in America. 7 years is a long time, longer than most of what I was with. I was in Kindergarten for 2 years, Primary school for 6 years, Secondary school for 5 years, College for 3 years and America for 7 years, longest I've ever find myself settling into.
Now I am about to embark on a new journey. I remembered the day that I came to America and how I felt so out of place arriving in Wichita. What a change of environment! This is going to be another one. Scary thing is that nothing is certain for me except for 2 things; God is still there and the love of my life is waiting for me.
New York is not all it is put out to be. TV only portray the nicer side of the city. I am flooded with so much fear, I don't know if I will find a good place to stay, I don't know if I can find a job... so much so it makes me doubt my own qualification and abilities... but then again, when was I ever good for anything without God. Knowing that God qualifies the willing, gives me hope. New York came to me as a place where everyone had their own troubles and there is not place for sympathy or community, only the strong survives. How does that sound to you? Its a competitive place, any ounce of slack would push you far back.
Why am I scared? Because I hate changes, I hate new things that I cannot get used to, or at least no one there to help me through. But as I said again, God in Kansas is still the same in New York. I could not even imagined if Meg wasn't there. God has sent her there to save me.
I am trying to learn to be open to changes and embrace new things, God brings growth through changes. I confess my doubts but yet in my head I know a God that does not abandon me, in fact, He is guiding me all the way through.
I told myself... or the Spirit told me... that I should be looking at the bigger picture. I want to do something that pleases Him and participate in His plans. I just don't want to be far away from Meg too. But I believe that God leads me through and always somehow get things done on time... what a life!
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| There are some things uncontainable...
Only one girl can melt my heart. No one does this to me but her, and even through moments when I don't feel all too well with relationships. There are only two things at the moment at can easily bring me to tears, and that is God and her.
I found myself the girl I have been waiting for. With all my mistakes and flaws, I found love that goes beyond what the eyes cannot see, not even the blissful moments of what the heart perceives. This is a love that reaches not only to my very soul, but it goes beyond into time, into my past and into my future. Very much like when Jesus died and took my sins past, present and future, her love does the same; loving all of my life, even when I have never met her yet.
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| Who hasn't watched a movie about New York?
Movies are movies but there are some elements in it that can be real. Don't get me wrong, it is a beautiful city. But so much of it all... something was missing.
I spent a week in New York 2 months back. Walked the streets of 6th Ave, smelled the stanch of south Central Park, lingered in Queens, sat through Jersey City on a bus. All in all, I only attended one church service. New York as vast and great as it is, I missed God in it... I could not find Him... because there were too many distractions. I am not saying that God is absent in New York, He is there... every single inch of that place, just not up front.
By no means that I live life like everyone else there... I still have a choice every morning I wake up, God is there waiting for me. Each day, I grow a little fond of this city... each day... I want God to be closer to me...
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